sleep-less.

walked the streets again tonight. i need to learn to rug up more when i take to the streets late at night to photograph. called my friend for an impromptu photo shoot. initially had three models but two pulled out. it was 10 degrees down in the park, and very damp. had a lot of fun with long shutter speeds and lights. came home with numb hands. still haven't quite got the hang of the new camera. need to play with it more, which would be made a lot easier if i wasn't constantly studying.

in other news, looking into getting new glasses, which is ridiculously exciting for me. thinking red, and little diamonds on the sides. need to have my script updated and then i am going to start the process. absolutely cannot wait!

jusqu'a la prochaine fois.

emergency funds.

so the last four weeks of my life have been spent on charity work with my year level for the alannah and madeline foundation. it is a foundation that strives to help children with violence, bullying etc. basically, the hope that every child will grow up healthy and happy. reasonable request i think.

for the past four weeks we have been putting together a benefit concert in order to raise money for the cause, and the concert was last night. we had so many amazing performances, including skits, music and lots of dances. i was in a hip hop dance which was really great fun. dancing again made me realise how much i miss it. all in all, the night was amazing, and we managed to raise $43,107 for the foundation which in four weeks i think is pretty impressive.

besides concert work i have just been busy with year 12 work. i have also been photographer for all the events we had over the past couple of weeks, including sausage sizzles, cupcake stalls and dress rehearsals. helps to really put thing in perspective and make you realise how lucky we are to get things we generally take for granted.

jusqu'a la prochaine fois.

this too shall pass.

i think that most things come in waves. anger, grief and anxiety all seem to move in a wave like pattern, getting really large and overwhelming and then at other times being still and calm and non existent.

last night i went to an after party for a year 12 formal and did the photos. i did a pretty weak job at capturing everyone, as i didnt know a lot of the people and i am still not great with asking people i dont know for their photos. the photos themselves weren't too bad, but the area didn't leave much space for creativity or you know, breathing. the place was situated in the midst of an industrial wasteland, with all these roller door factories. it all seemed very sus as we were driving there but the venue ended up being pretty amazing. it was very skins, but with a little less drugs and drama. the walls were all spray painted and there was a strobe which was actually a bit of a pain in the ass.

it's nice to actually feel like taking photos again, and wanting to edit them. this will also help with my folio i assume, as the thing will most likely need some photos in it when i go for interviews. aiming to stop getting so angry at people around me and realise that they are mostly shit, and throwing those people aside so i can focus on those who are surfacing at the top as really amazing people to surround myself with. i am slowly getting better at learning to ride the waves and wait for the calm.

jusqu'a la prochaine fois.

bird on a wire.

monday. feeling good. nothing seems impossible today, and i feel like the stuff that should be important, like school assessments are just small scale compared to other stuff. i feel like i was looking at a tiny section of a picture and i have stepped back. for the moment anyway. i have begun editing in photoshop again. i need to do a lot more of it for my folio. make sure you all take the time to step back this week.

jusqu'a la prochaine fois.

care for a lil' necrophilia?

today was a day that shouldn't of worked but it did. i sat at home this morning and looked outside to this day of sunshine and loveliness and looked inside, where my books sat sky high ready for me to study. instead, i ditched the study and called up a friend to go and photograph in the city. i have film in my fisheye that needed to be finished, a new roll of film in the pentax k1000 and my digital slr that needed an outing. honestly, so did i. i have spent so much time cooped up inside recently with year 12, it is rediculous how much life it sucks from you.

when we got into the city, we discovered the zombie shuffle was on. for those of you that don't know, the zombie shuffle is when large numbers of melbournians (and foreigners, we don't discriminate) dress as zombies and 'shuffle' through the melbourne city. it was great fun to watch, and a little bit scary, as some of the costumes were very realistic. i got attacked by one guy who got his blood on my cardigan and jeans, but the camera was alright so thats all that matters. if you are reading this, you owe me new clothes haha. you can check out the photos on my flickr which i am now using. we got lost on the trains, scared by zombies and didn't do what we set out to do, but it was so much fun. now i have to make up for the study tomorrow, and it was so worth it :)

nb: if this is you in the photographs and you want them taken off, just let me know.

jusqu'a la prochaine fois.