t-t-time.

well, it's christmas morning and everyone in my family is still asleep at 9am. i don't think i have ever been this un-excited for christmas in all my 17 years of life. i think as you grow up, chrtistmas becomes a little less exciting and a bit more....i don't know...just like any other day i guess. when i was 7 i went to the family christmas lunches and got lots of presents and ate too much. now i eat too much, but you realise that the presents are useless and better put into an oxfam gift of a goat or a water well. having said this, i do still enjoy the gifts i get from parents, as they know what i actually want. but the gifts you receive from your aunty, grandma and cousins from another state are usually things like a bar of soap of a book on flys, that you look at and realise how little your family knows you.

now when i go to the lunches 10 years later i see the passive aggressive anger my family hold for one another, and my teenage cousins who looks like they don't want to be there. but in christmas spirit, like most of the holidays, the main focus is put on the little kids, and i am sure that my cousins are looking forward to opening oodles of presents and believing in santa. and how i wish i could join them with that same excitement. but alas, i am a 'big kid' now and everyone knows that santa doesn't bring the 'big kids' presents, because santa is simply a fat guy in a suit that enjoys children sitting on his lap in shopping centres.

i am sure this all sounds very pessimistic, but all this aside, i do enjoy getting together with family, as we all know that family are forever. mum, in all her excitement and love for christmas and giving presents to the little ones, found a fake tree on the side of the road and picked it up. so looks like it is a second hand christmas for us. and you know what, i am completely fine with that :)

i hope that you all have a marvellous christmas and a restful time with your families and friends.

jusqu'à la prochaine fois.